The Waiting

Right before we start a warning, this is a rant, so far no new info to share about the implant still waiting for my op (14th July) the switch on a month after and getting my hands on the actual equipment pack which should be the next thing actually, should be available for me to pick up in the next few weeks, hell I might even do some sort of post about it, speaking to other implant recipients suggests that I might need a wheelbarrow to get it all home! So it’s a lot of kit, I can see the tech geek in me geeking out about it.
But that’s not the point of this post. The point is the waiting, waiting for something to happen. It’s driving me loco. I know it’s all coming but every time somebody talks to me, every time I try to listen to the TV, or a game, or even some music (base stuff is not out of bounds at the moment, just don’t ask me what they are singing, they could be singing a recipe for cake and I would have no bloody idea). It’s all a reminder that “This is going to be better/easier when I’ve learnt to use the implant fully” it’s maddening.
So if I’m distant, frustrated, irritable, testy, pissed off or just downright unsociable it’s not you its me!
My time is now, so why won’t it bloody get here already!